Loving Who I Am, and A Back Story

A nice drink of Whiskey while watching a horror film is always a pleasure.

A lot of people my size are ashamed of their body, but if you get into the mindset that it's OK to be in your skin, and to heck with what others think, life gets a lot better for you.

This is the big scar I have just beside a large hernia. The hernia won't be fixed any time soon as I'm at risk of not making it if they operate. So it's one more think that makes me not "average".

I originally gained weight after I hurt my back at the age of 9. I was actually extremely active at that time of my life and despite that, I kept the weight on. When I was in my late 20's, I hurt my back again and was then unable to exercise and I became sedentary. This was when I rapidly gained weight and the stretch marks showed up. In my late 30's I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia and by that time could no longer work. Not long after I shot up to 550 lbs. Right now I'm around 380 lbs. So I've lost a great deal of weight, but I'll never be able to work again, and I really do miss working. Being fine with who I am and how I look is a big part of being happy in life. Being nude is the natural state of being and it feels right. I've been a nudist since I was a small child, so was my Dad and my Brother. Mom did not partake, as she had a lot of hang-ups from being raised Catholic. We never went to nudist vacation spots however, I started to do that on my own in my late teens (19). Not it's just a thing around the apartment, but it's who I am and how I wish to be. Peace and dare to be you.

 

Nudism, Body Positive, and More

Recently had to inform someone that Twitter allows Nudity and Sexuality in it's posts. The rules are you set your profile to "may contain sensitive material", and do NOT post a nude profile pic or banner pic. It is also nice of you to day you are a nudist in your bio, if you ask me.

The fellow seems to have a lot of hang-ups about public nudity and posting nudity online. I find this interesting from someone who watches porn. But then again, I don't actually care for porn at all, I find it dull as hell.

His thing is, "Twitter is social media". Well yes it is, and it allows this. His other thing is, "Children might see it". Yes they might, and this is on the parents for not monitoring what their children do online. The majority of content I encounter on Twitter is for adults. Not just the nudists I follow, but news, art, and even talking about kink.

Honestly I literally can't see the deal here. It's a site who allows the content, so why am I going to worry about children seeing it? I'm not.

As well, if you set your profile to automatically see sensitive content, do NOT bitch you saw a nude person. Seriously. Do you go to an art gallery and scream at the staff that there is a nude painting? Don't be ridiculous.

Personally I find that nudity is not inappropriate at the best of times, but I've been a nudist my entire life. This being said, I keep in the limits of society. I'm not one to push the bounds and go for a walk nude in the park. I also don't tend to post shots that show my genitals. I've posted full body on Instagram and Twitter, but never showing the genitals.

Yes, I've posted genital shots in the past online, and even bondage photos of myself all tied up. They where not on Twitter, but on a designated adult site.

I am fine with showing everything personally, I just don't do it on Twitter. I do have to wonder about people who call themselves nudists that post sexually suggestive poses or shots of just their genitals. Seems they are exhibitionists, not nudists to me.

This blog is specifically for the purpose of promoting the nudist lifestyle, and body positivity. People deserve to be proud of their body and should not be shamed, because they don't happen to look like someone in the movies. We are all humans and all deserve a fundamental level of respect, until our actions demand otherwise.

Speaking of body positive, here are some shots from today.

Pusheen is always watching over me when I sleep.

Drinking Tea, Listening to Music, and Being Nude

 

FIRST POST, THE MORNING.

Positive body image is what I'm about. I love who I am and am at total peace with how I look. It is sad that most people in our society have issues with their body in some manner or not. Often for men, it's the size of their penis. I am extremely average, but because I'm also extremely overweight, it looks to say the least tiny. I could care less what someone thinks of my misshapen body, or it's parts. The best part of the nudist community is how accepting they are of different body types. Below are a few photos and commentary. I'm sadly a "part time nudist" by necessity, and wish I had the ability (AKA money) to live the lifestyle full time. My entire life I was told it was OK to be nude, I was never shamed into hiding my body, but I was thought the limits of being in a society that does not condone nudity in public. My father and my brother and I where often nude in the evenings in our family home of my youth. My mother had deep rooted hang-ups about it as she was raised "very catholic".

Sleeping nude is the only way to go. It is just a better sleep that way. It's been said it is more healthy for you as well.

Wake up every morning to the site of my stuffed toys on the dresser that all have a special meaning to me. The dog and the bear where Moms. The cow I got when Mom was in the hospital and she almost died. The Pusheen is a remembrance of my not passed on Mother.

Trying to get the best photo for me in bed was tough. It's hard to hold the phone still for me as my hands are not steady, so here is a blurry shot of me in bed.

First thing to do in the morning is to make the coffee in my Moka pot. I love a nice strong cup of coffee to start the day with.

I mostly eat what I call "bean mix", it's lentils cooked with frozen mixed veggies, then a large can of crushed tomatoes, and a large can of stewed tomatoes. I often hit it with some hot sauce as I consume it. A batch has 2 cups of dry lentils, and 4 cups of frozen veggies BTW. It makes 6 servings and normally it's all I eat 3 times a day. Some find this dull, but I am used to it and it's actually healthy eating.

Rule number one of being naked when you are doing things in your apartment is have the blinds closed. I'm on the first floor (20 up to my window), and although it's not possible to see in from the parking lot, it is from the church windows across the parking lot, so I ALWAYS have the blinds either fully shut or mostly shut when I'm nude in my apartment. I want to respect others and not just toss my nude body in their face, unless they come to a blog like this, and in that case, they are looking for it. I do not even remotely think nudity is a social setting is dirty or wrong, but not all of society thinks like me, and I respect that.

Blinds are open so I can have natural light and I am dressed for the day. I spend the daylight hours with clothing on, as you have no idea how many times someone comes to my door, and I need the sunlight to keep me from being too depressed, so I compromise. As for the door, I seem to be the one who opens jars and bottles for people on the floor. I'm glad to help and I enjoy interacting with people. I often end up talking to others in the lobby or the laundry, and it's fun for me, even though I am rather shy in real life, I make myself interact and it's worth it. If I had a perfect life with all the money I'd ever need, I'd move to a place that was a nude friendly environment. I miss the days of being at nude resorts and nude camping - not to mention nude events on peoples farms and acreages. Most of the people I enjoyed the nude life with are either dead or moved far away. I can't afford to travel to camps and so on, so here I am, a part time nudist (sadly).